One Word for 26: Confidence
It’s so weird to think of where my life was a year ago. It doesn’t seem that long ago. I was living in Pittsburgh, totally spinning my wheels, writing out goals I thought I should achieve as a 25 year old. I felt stuck and like this list of things would get me out of my stuck place.
I don’t want to focus on goals for 26 because I made a bunch of goals for this year. I want to focus on a word, inspired by a question Tina Muir asks in her Runners’ Connect podcasts. The word for 2015?
25 was kind of a whirlwind. As the wordsmith Drake once said, I go 0 to 100 real quick. I spent my birthday with my family in Savannah, pretty quickly after went on a surf trip to Nicaragua. I set a couple new half-marathon PRs, thought I fell in love, lost my job, got a new job, got dumped, moved across the country, made out with a boy I had a crush on for years (wait, didn’t that happen earlier in the year, too?), started dating someone across the country again, made some new friends, lost some old friends (actually, JK on that one… I think)… a lot happens in a year. A lot of things that can shake anyone’s confidence.
I suffer from self-sabotaging, debilitating doubt at times. It’s really weird because I can be the most confident person at times and others, I can’t get out of bed because I feel like I’ll never be good enough so why bother. My expectations for myself are much higher than anyone else would ever set for me and I need to realize that if I’m going to achieve all of the things I want to, I need confidence to do so. I’ve had
boys people ask me why I’m trying so hard to appear be perfect because it’s exhausting. And it is.
I’ve figured out how to push myself out of my comfort zone, which I think was a big theme for 25. Now I have to figure out how to own it. Own that I’m capable of running 26.2 miles. Own that I’m talented and I have the ability to be successful. Own that a boy would actually want to be with me and likes me for me, not the idea of me (gasp!) because, I get it, I’m great on paper (great job, great apartment, athletic, pretty, decently smart) but in real life, I’m kind of all over the place and mentally a mess at times.
So here I am. Three days from 26 and starting to embrace feeling sure of myself. Because, let’s be real – confidence without arrogance is sexy.
Chat with me:
How do you embrace having confidence? What do you want to own this year? What is something you want to work on?